My Journey to Islam :: Revert Story
Posted January 7, 2012on:
My Journey to Islam :: Revert Story
Al-Anaam, Chapter #6, Verse #125-126:
125 Those whom Allah (in His plan) willeth to guide,- He openeth their breast to Islam; those whom He willeth to leave straying,- He maketh their breast close and constricted, as if they had to climb up to the skies: thus doth Allah (heap) the penalty on those who refuse to believe.
126 This is the way of thy Lord, leading straight: We have detailed the signs for those who receive admonition.
My old name “Glynda Lynne”. I was born into a family with 5 generations in the United States Marine Corps on the military base of Camp Lejuene, North Carolina. When I was 4 years old, my step-father decided to move my Mom, me and my half-brother to Atlanta, Georgia to be closer to his mom and dad.
From there, I was raised by my step-grandparents ad my step-father in a predominantly Southern Baptist household. I was however, taught Roman Catholicism because my mother’s family (Native American and Italian) are practicing Roman Catholics. So besides the two VERY different religious beliefs going on at the same time in my head, my grandfather tells me that he is an atheist because he thinks that people should do things on their own without any help. To seek help, even from a God is a sign of weakness.
My step-grandmother however, was a practicing Southern Baptist and took me and my half-brother with her to church every Sunday. The funny thing was, after getting out of church I would expect myself to feel better or have more peace OR SOMETHING DIFFERENT LOL! But always I would still have that empty, depressed feeling inside of me. Even after when I got older and started attending Mass (Catholic service) I STILL had a feeling like something was missing from my life and could not figure out what it was.
Well, that depressed, empty feeling went on inside of me until a little bit of light came into my life when I was in college at 18 years old. In my advanced English class, we were assigned to do an essay on compare and contrast between any two subjects we wanted. For some reason, (later on I found out it was the will of ALLAH SWT Alhamduellah ^_^)
I chose Sunni Muslim and Shia’a Muslim. Researching this essay almost was an introduction to Islam to me, because up until this point I did not have ANY knowledge about anything to do with Islam. I learn a lot of the various differences between the two sects: like 90% of Muslims are Sunni, most Shia’a are in Iran and how the split between the two occurred. I did not really formulate an opinion on either the Sunni or Shia’a, I was just comparing the differences between the two.
Later on Alhamduellah, I chose Sunni Muslim because it just made more sense to me.
Another thing that happened from this essay (besides the intro to Islam) was that I began to have a lot of questions on Islam and what the Qur’an teaches and just the basic beliefs! Unfortunately though, two weeks after the completion of my essay, September 11th, 2001 happened and then the tremendous backlash against Islam began shortly thereafter. People everywhere, from the news to the streets, were saying really bad things about Islam. Then I would have to deal with some of that backlash for asking questions or researching on Islam. I was unfortunately; very confused at that time thinking maybe I was not doing the right thing on researching Islam because of the hateful things being said to me. So I just went along with my current belief system (Catholic) in an effort to please the people around me and maybe make them leave me alone. That attitude goes back to my childhood because if I did not do as I was told, bad things would happen. BUT I never said one bad word against any Muslim or Islam because I always felt that if I did not know anything for sure 100%, I should not speak about it. But inside of me I just KNEW that something better than what I had as far as the religious belief system was there in Islam. I just did not know what it was exactly.
So after dealing with some of the negative backlash from researching Islam, I became very scared to question too much. And the following years after that were depressing empty years (like my childhood) that always left me with the feeling that something was missing. In an attempt to sort things out and fill this emptiness inside of me, I got married to a guy that later turned out to be an abuser, and from there I needed to concentrate on finding a way out for me and my baby girl.
After my divorce from my abusive husband in 2010, Alhamduellah, I had a little bit more time to do some more research on Islam after my daughter (my angel of joy) went to bed. So I began liking the various Islamic pages on facebook and doing more research into Islam that way. About 90% of what I found, Alhamduellah, showed me the true beauty representing the REAL nature of Islam and was VERY beneficial to increasing my Iman (faith) and Aqeeda (Islamic Knowledge) a little at a time. And STILL, some of the same people came back to me telling me the same wrong thing before about Islam and how I must be soooo stupid for wanting to study a religion like Islam. The only difference was that I became stronger and a better women and told them to leave me alone and I was not listening anymore to their LIES. Then I started to ask questions again when I stopped caring how people treated me.
Shortly after that, I had a major epiphany. The epiphany happened when I came to realize that I was VERY wrong on saying that God had a SON. When I was able to stop believing that, it was like a door opened for me to TRULY understand Islam and then everything made so much more sense to me. It was at that point when I knew for sure I want to become a Muslim. Because for sure NOTHING that I have every experienced was this peaceful and loving as Islam truly is!!!
Soon after knowing EXACTLY what I wanted to do, I started performing my 5 daily prayers and a month after that I began to wear my Hijab!!! ^_^ and about 3 or 4 months later, I said my Shahada in Egypt ~SUBHANAALLAH!!!!!!!!
NOTHING I have ever done or studied gave me the peace I have been searching for my WHOLE LIFE! InshaALLAH I will always have this inner peace ^_^!!!!!!!!!!! AND I have never had the feeling of strength to be able to deal with everything I have been through, happening to me now and what continues to happen as well!!!
I LOVE ALLAH SWT, HIS PROPHET MUHAMMED (PEACE BE UPON HIM) AND ISLAM SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!! ALLAH U AKBAR!!!!!
This sister is the same sister Who need help in Huston.